Saturday, November 1, 2008
iim having some birthday blues,somehow iim not looking forward to my birthday this year. i have no idea whats happening to me. i really have no idea, i have no mood to do anything,and i get a really pissed over small little things, that is so unlike me, i aint that petty,and iim not that kind who will get pissed off easily, usually,when people says something nasty, i will still smile and just make everything seems like a joke. but ya,this few days were really bad, i was just pissed with everyone and everything, and i apologize,especially to dinesh and weixin,sorry that i aint myself this few days, i guess pw was a torture with me around right? i apologize for that. maybe iim tired of being happy every single day, people have moods too. but iim tired of what i've become. behind every smile is a sad story. iim tired of hiding my feelings and putting up a false front, sometimes i just hope i can just break down.life aint that simple, life is complicated and iim not mature enough to handle my life. but still i will live on. i still wanna laugh all day long,but my laughter seem to have faded away. anyway,lets see how things goes.
oh ya.i have got this HUGE problem. dinesh says iim aneroxic. usually i will eat like 24 hours a day, i will eat like non stop, but this few days i've stopped eating,no lunch,dinner is like so little and breakfast is just a piece of bread. whats wrong? i dont know.
put the negative stuffs aside.monday is kleff's grp's OP. so good luck to you guys! you guys will ace it man! no problem. JY eh! to charlene kleff keith ameerun and cat, JY JY JY! no more OP for you guys after monday le! (: WOOTS! okay.i need some rest.toodles.