Thursday, November 13, 2008
yay.my 100th post, woots! cool! lols.this year is gone in a blink of an eye. from the start of PAE where i get to know friends that i never contact anymore till now 1s07, the different stories in school and how people changes, this year really made me understand that looks can be decieving.hais, that innocent facade had fooled all of us, sometimes i really hope life is just simple, and people would just fool around and let things go, why are some people that petty, why do some people hate some others, why cant we be peace loving people, life would be so so much better with people who takes joke, who just smile and forget stuffs fast. why is there always competition and scenerios where i hate you and you hate me. life...iim sorry, but this few days was really quite bad for me, i just dont have the mood to do anything, i just feel like rotting in bed and be harmless, food taste like chunks of tastelss white chicken, life feels so lonely, love feels like a deadly poison that will harm you, friends feels like they are drifting apart from you, studies feels like mental garbage that is being force fed into you. i dont know, life aint the same, sometimes iim just tired, when you sit down and think what you have accomplish and to your horror, you did nth that made anyone proud you feel demoralised. those smiles aint that cheerful anymore, those jokes dont seem funny anymore, those laughter feels so fake to you suddenly, do you smile laugh and joke for the joy or it or do you do it for the sake of doing it so that it will help lighten your misery, i dont know. i will never knowiim really tired, why wont life stop at the time i was 3 or 5, then i will always be a protected flower, never will i get to get in touch with this hideous world, never will i get to know that people just aint that kind as you thought, and life isnt as easy as abc. when you start talking, you are a potential danger to others, and when you start to walk, you are a deadly threat to others, thats life. you will find yourself competeing with others every second of your life, and your mind would always be filled with thoughts on how to defeat your opponent, cant i just stay where im and bask in my parents love, and get pampered no matter what happens.
when you have no friends, no love, no family, you will feel like life is just black and white, only friends love and family can paint your life, no matter what colour it is, they just brighten up your life, my life, cant it be better?








